I have never been in that bad of a reading/writing slump before. It felt like trying to put down words or pick them up was an unbearable challenge. Normally, I’m fairly consistent with my reading and writing, but two weeks ago we had to unexpectedly put my dog down. It was awful. He was only 5 years old and he was my best friend. To have to put him down threw me off and I still search for him every morning, looking to see if he’s sitting on the floor beneath my seat at breakfast. I’ve never lost a pet as an “adult” before and it hurts.
To top it off, a friend of mine died last month unexpectedly as well. While I’ve had more time to process that, it still feels unreal. To have two deaths in the span of two months is something my brain still can’t comprehend properly, but I’m trying.
So while I apologize for my failure to post or read, I know it’s an acceptable thing. And I’m aware it’s not something I need to apologize for. But I feel like I should anyways so, I’m sorry.
Thankfully, as I relearn aspects of my familiar life, I’m starting to feel like I can read and write again. I hope this will help me through this time as I continue to process everything, or at least give me a false sense of “everything is ok”. I managed to read the entirety of A Curse So Dark and Lonely by Brigid Kemmerer last night which feels like a huge success!
So until I can smash my fingers on the keyboard and put out another post, thank you for sticking with me. And if anyone is going through a similar experience, please don’t hesitate to reach out. It can be hard but it gets easier over time.
While this isn’t much of anything I did want to update on my absence and failure to post. I hope to be back to posting like normal soon.
Thank you for your support!